Well the weekend is getting better. Yesterday i was just beyond angry most of the day but we did go shopping.. i love going to tjmaxx's home goods section this time of year to stock up on heart stuff.. I love hearts..just never grew out of that lol!!
After that we went to starbucks where they currently are serving up my favorite drink.. cinnamon dulce latte's.. YUM. I had a nice night in with my husband too after that.:)
the adoption front is looking bleak at best but yet i feel more hopeful in an odd way then i have in a while at the same time now that we're going to start working with DCF as well. i am so eager to learn about adoption stuff everywhere and anywhere I can!

no big football plans for this weekend for us. thankfully we don't care about it in this house and we always watch a bunch of movies. we saw one last night and have another ready for tonight. Niether of us are in the mood to party or be in a social setting right now. things just keep getting worse with the referal agency and the emails are getting nastier. i've stopped responding because i just am not into bickering. gets you no where and has no place in a professional setting which this should be. so sick of life throwing us curves and tricky things... i hope it ends soon. i cant help but feel like i have to bend over and be nice or i'll ruin my ability to adopt now or ever.. but at the same time I will never go down with out a fight and we will do foriegn or embryo adoption before i compromise what i think is right. I am still hopefull that the agency will take this as a chance to turn things around and make right with us; i really do. I want to recomend them to others.. i want a happy ending.. but i'm afraid that may not happen with the latest correspondance. i wish i could post it here.. you girls would be sick and mad. Which i was yesterday.. i had such a migraine and felt so lousy from stress until i finally decided at about 8pm to just shut it off and not to let another miserable person try to rain on my parade lol! Crazy how these things go huh? Well, here's to hoping for a miraculous turn around.. little miss pessimist (me) has really turned into the unrealistic optimist in the last several months..